Denzel: I know I've done something I shouldn't have, but I actually don't feel bad about it at all. Mummy and daddy did it, Bambi and Lecea have and Ciel and Sebastian do it too, so why I can't I? I thought it was going to be a horrid experiance, but it really wasn't! Maybe Elias is right when he says 'Don't knock it before you've tried it' ...Oh wait, he always says that when he tries to get me to eat new foods. I can't tell Eli about what I did with Caru. I know he loathes that kind of thing, and if he were to find out I'd be in big trouble. That's why daddy can't find out, or Bambi. Especially him. Caru suggested Geniveve didn't find out either. She fancies him, but he fancies me! She'd hate me. I don't want that. I like her. I think she is very pretty. If she didn't like me anymore, then I wouldn't be able to ask if I could wear any of her dresses...

Lots of things have happened the past few days. I got better. My eyes are fine now, all thanks to the necklace Caru gave to me. That's pretty too, and I love it. I have to pretend that Caru didn't manage to infuse his own blood into it somehow or I get creeped out. I imagine it's called a 'Bloodstone' for the colour, and not what's in it.

I've played games. First I played hide and seek with Sebastian, after I asked him nicely to make me a coffee, just like Geniveve makes hers. He called Lucky a silly old bear! He is not. He's one of my best friends and I love him very much. Sebastian says he's best at everything because he's lived so long... I say he's a liar, and the only thing he's good at is showing off his huge ego. I told Caru he was rubbish at playing hide and seek because I won. Sebastian couldn't find me. Only, Sebastian heard me say it and he got really angry and threw a chair at me, but he missed... He can't even throw properly! 

Caru and I played truth or dare. It started off fun. I got Caru to wear a dress of mine, and it made him look lovely. He should wear them more often. I wouldn't mind letting him borrow them. I don't suggest taking a dress off someone with only your teeth, using no hands or feet, it's harder than it looks. I dared Caru to say something to Sebastian, and he did, but I think Sebastian may have slapped him. I thought it was mean. So then I made him go back and slap Sebastian back. I knew Sebastian was evil and scary because he hurt Caru really bad. I felt awful. I shouldn't have made him do it, because he got really sad after. I can't remember why on earth I went up to Sebastian demanding he apologise to him. I hit Sebastian with a pillow, but he didn't punish me, he just picked me up and put me outside the door.  I broke my own finger as a means of punishment to myself. I can't be so stupid and let my friends get hurt. Maybe next time I'll learn before getting someone to approach something scary.

Getting back to the thing I did with Caru... I'd do it again, provided it remained a secret from the others. I can't even explain to myself why I enjoyed it. I hadn't felt that close to someone before. It made me happy. A kind of happy that I'll never get with Lucky. That really is quite a shame. Maybe... me and Lucky can try and work something out so everyone is happier. I think I can understand why people even have sex with the people they love, and thinking that me and Lucky can never- Oh, that smell~  Elias is making cookies. I had better go and  see to them before this so called Ulixies cookie monster does.