Cambion: I hate this, I really do. With all these health issues, it makes me feel incompetent and inferior. I can't see, which makes leaving the house a bit of a problem. I can't go though the middle of the streets of London in my animal form. I'll be killed. I've always been one for being outside quite often, and now I'm forced to stay indoors most of the time. I don't want Keaira to feel as if he has to look after me all the time. I get the feeling this depresses him. Caru too, which is why he wont come home. I can manage... I'll learn to cope with this somehow, even if there is nothing I want more right now than to see Keaira's face again. 


I told Keaira to not bother with pestering mum for a cure. I'm going accept this as everyone's payback for the things I've done to them in the past. I did this so Keaira could get better, and thus we could stick together. Honestly, I believe my eyesight isn't enough to give to repay him for the things he's done for me. 


Yes, I hate it, but I did this for him. I love him, and I'll do almost anything for him as long as he is happy and healthy.


On the brighter side, Echo is to have a child soon. I can't wait to meet it, I'm so excited even if I'll never know what it looks like...

Denzel: I know I've done something I shouldn't have, but I actually don't feel bad about it at all. Mummy and daddy did it, Bambi and Lecea have and Ciel and Sebastian do it too, so why I can't I? I thought it was going to be a horrid experiance, but it really wasn't! Maybe Elias is right when he says 'Don't knock it before you've tried it' ...Oh wait, he always says that when he tries to get me to eat new foods. I can't tell Eli about what I did with Caru. I know he loathes that kind of thing, and if he were to find out I'd be in big trouble. That's why daddy can't find out, or Bambi. Especially him. Caru suggested Geniveve didn't find out either. She fancies him, but he fancies me! She'd hate me. I don't want that. I like her. I think she is very pretty. If she didn't like me anymore, then I wouldn't be able to ask if I could wear any of her dresses...

Lots of things have happened the past few days. I got better. My eyes are fine now, all thanks to the necklace Caru gave to me. That's pretty too, and I love it. I have to pretend that Caru didn't manage to infuse his own blood into it somehow or I get creeped out. I imagine it's called a 'Bloodstone' for the colour, and not what's in it.

I've played games. First I played hide and seek with Sebastian, after I asked him nicely to make me a coffee, just like Geniveve makes hers. He called Lucky a silly old bear! He is not. He's one of my best friends and I love him very much. Sebastian says he's best at everything because he's lived so long... I say he's a liar, and the only thing he's good at is showing off his huge ego. I told Caru he was rubbish at playing hide and seek because I won. Sebastian couldn't find me. Only, Sebastian heard me say it and he got really angry and threw a chair at me, but he missed... He can't even throw properly! 

Caru and I played truth or dare. It started off fun. I got Caru to wear a dress of mine, and it made him look lovely. He should wear them more often. I wouldn't mind letting him borrow them. I don't suggest taking a dress off someone with only your teeth, using no hands or feet, it's harder than it looks. I dared Caru to say something to Sebastian, and he did, but I think Sebastian may have slapped him. I thought it was mean. So then I made him go back and slap Sebastian back. I knew Sebastian was evil and scary because he hurt Caru really bad. I felt awful. I shouldn't have made him do it, because he got really sad after. I can't remember why on earth I went up to Sebastian demanding he apologise to him. I hit Sebastian with a pillow, but he didn't punish me, he just picked me up and put me outside the door.  I broke my own finger as a means of punishment to myself. I can't be so stupid and let my friends get hurt. Maybe next time I'll learn before getting someone to approach something scary.

Getting back to the thing I did with Caru... I'd do it again, provided it remained a secret from the others. I can't even explain to myself why I enjoyed it. I hadn't felt that close to someone before. It made me happy. A kind of happy that I'll never get with Lucky. That really is quite a shame. Maybe... me and Lucky can try and work something out so everyone is happier. I think I can understand why people even have sex with the people they love, and thinking that me and Lucky can never- Oh, that smell~  Elias is making cookies. I had better go and  see to them before this so called Ulixies cookie monster does.

Cambion: Yesterday was somewhat interesting, to say the least. I met two new people. Geniveve and Ulixes. Geniveve is vermin half-blood and a liar. Ulixes is... Okay, so honestly, bats do look like tailess and legless rats, and rats are also street vermin and pests, but I'm not going to call Ulixes vermin because bats don't scare me. They're adorable. I was carrying him around yesterday in my hand. He's friendly enough to me. It's weird though how he just knows everything about everyone. Best not to lie to that guy though, he'll probably be able to tell.  We made cookies, and he ate most of them. They were good. I think he has his fathers talent for cooking sweet things.


I was able to go into the Phantomhive manor and not get thrown out, which surprised me a lot. I did come across Ciel, and we spoke a little. He did seem angry at first, but then I told him how me and Sebastian were on talking terms again. I said that Sebastian was clever and that if he thought it was a bad idea to speak to me, then he wouldn't do it. I think Ciel trusts him a lot, considering after I said that, he agreed to try his hardest not to hate me, but he's not making any promises. I need to be on my best behaviour around them, because my chances are wearing a little thin. I wasn't expecting anymore after the fire, but it would appear I was wrong. 


I also spoke to Caru yesterday. It was a bit of a failure to be honest. Turns out he doesn't like bats, and he hates it when I say bad things about Denzel. He's pissed that I made him sick. Oh well, he admitted Denzel is getting better so it shouldn't even bother him anymore. No real harm done. I just hope Caru doesn't stay mad, because even though I'm his uncle, I see him rather as a younger brother or something. I told Keaira I'd always be nice to him, and I hope that Caru will let me. But it'd be difficult it he hates me. I'm impatient and I have a strong tendency to say hurtful things without thinking about it.