Cambion; Today has been... The most devastating day of my life. My poor brother. He's dead, all thanks to the joint effort of Claude and Ciel. Claude had killed himself, and Keaira felt the need to do the same. He didn't want to be apart from him. Ciel wished Keaira was miserable. His wish came true, and now I'm stuck, wanting to to the same as as Keaira, but I can't. I told him only hours before that I wouldn't commit suicide over the person I loved. Truth is, I probably couldn't understand the pain of losing the person you love the most then, and now I do. I hadn't expected him to do it. He's supposed to be the strong one I look up to. I need someone to look up to now, and no one is there...


I feel terribly lonely, even if Jazz is still here with me. Although, she wont be for much longer, will she? No, because everyone you get close to, either dies, or turns on you. I hated love for that reason, and now I'm thinking to abandon even friendship. It's useless. I want to go back to the way I was before. Half-demon. It was less painful without all these emotions. 


It's foolish to want to back out of a contract, but I don't want Jazz to 'save' my soul from Hell anymore. If Keaira has gone to Hell, then that's where I want to go as well, even if it means I have to suffer for an eternity. Part of me now hopes Jazz does indeed pass before I do, so my soul will not be devoured. I'll meet up with my brother again one day. When I told Keaira I loved him, I really meant it. I always have done, I've just been too scared to say so. 


I wont allow my parents to take Keaira and bury him on the manor grounds. If he's with them, then that means I wont be able to visit him all the time. Jazz is going to take him and bury him in the woods, away from where people will find him. The only people who are to know of his and Claude's whereabouts is me, Jazz and Aurelei. No one else. Not my parents. 


I haven't left his side for more than an hour since Jazz bought him inside, and that was to go to the roof of this block of flats.


Burn it.


I could see Ciel's manor burning in the distance. Well done, Jazz. Ciel left me without a real home, and now he must lose his. I'm hoping people get trapped in that fire and burn. Ciel needs to lose loved ones. The more, the better. Forget wanting to see him smile. I want to see the bastard cry...


Rest In Peace, Keaira. I love you so, so much.


Even alone, I’ll go on, even if it’s painful.
I’ll definitely take along the dream I saw with you.
It was nice to be with you, you and not anyone else.
…But in the morning I woke up to, you’re not there.


Even alone, I’ll go on. Even if I start to want to die,
I’ll hear your voice telling me that I must not die.
Even if it’s painful, even if the loneliness makes me cry,
Deep in my heart, I’ll feel your warmth.