Cambion;                                    

The demons are leaving my soul. 

 The shadows of the night are defeated by happiness.

I feel love.

I feel liberty.

My soul is saved.
Happiness is strong.

Cambion; Keaira and Aranis were supposed to be happy together. I feel as if I've gotten in the way of that, and stopped it from happening. Keaira doesn't love him. 


Aranis will think this is my fault and hate me again. He'll probably fall into depression, maybe even commit suicide again... I'd given him false hope.  


Mother, Sebastian... You are both incompetent fools! You had the chance to kill me more than once, so why didn't you do it? I even told you to. No matter what I do, what I try, I will always cause misery for those around me, directly or not. Now Aranis must suffer because of me, and I sure as hell do not want him to. Keaira, however can not be forced to love someone. 


I deserve a fate worse than death for what I have done in the past. The fire. I'm full with guilt for murdering those children. It wasn't supposed to happen. I wasn't in my right state of mind. My emotions took over. Tie me up and torture me for an eternity. I expect no less after I die. I don't want to cause pain and suffering to my friends. I just want them to be happy. But I've noticed you can't give one person happiness, without hurting someone else. I despise the way that system works. I can't please anyone...

Elias; I’ve left the Phantomhive manor. Whether this is a temporary thing or not, I do not know. Skye told me to leave, and I have. I can’t stand seeing him mad, upset or angry with me. Things haven’t been the same between us since Nameless left him, and with his son passing away due to the events of the recent fire. He’s coping bad, and I just wish I could comfort him, and try and make him feel even a tiny bit better, but I can’t. I’m shouted at. I’ve been told to die, leave and not come back. I’m giving Skye a week to think about what he said. I’ll admit, he does change his mind often, which is why I haven’t left for the next town already. I think I may do work in Cambridge, then off to Norwich, then Leicester and Nottingham. I have a bit of money to get me out of London now, and I’m looking forward to getting out of this place... But I don’t want to leave Skye, even if he wants me gone. If me being away makes him happier, then I’ll do it. His happiness is most important. I must remember this.

Skye needs to know that even though it feels as if the world is over, it isn’t. Life is only as bad and as dark as you make it. I never came from a good background. My mother always taught me to think of a better future and try and make it a reality. You can choose to keep living in darkness, or you can struggle and find the light at the end of the road. I did. Always. I’ve come out on top. I reached that happy place, kind of. If it slips away, I catch it again. It’s easier than you think. I was born on the streets, I used to steal from people to try and keep myself alive. I thought I’d be doing that forever. Mother got sick, and unfortunately passed away. As upset and distraught as I was, I kept going, for her sake. Trying to prove that I can make her proud. Get somewhere in life.

I get caught and taken in by Lord Trancy, and along with those other boys, we were used sexually. This was not what I wanted for myself. The other boys, stayed in the dark. They saw no future for themselves. I wouldn’t be like that, I had to keep going. I wasn’t giving in to some dirty old man. Every time I got called upon by Trancy, I’d put up a fight. I wouldn’t be beaten and broken like the others who had given up. I have the scars to prove for my courage of trying to stand up for myself. It seems another boy also didn’t want to have his life end in this disgusting place. When Trancy died, Alois let the remaining boys go. So I came to be back on the streets again. But instead of stealing from others, I decided to look around for somewhere to work, in exchange for a place to stay, and a little food. Eventually the search paid off, and I was given a chance to work in bakery by a lovely lady called Nancy. I adored her, really. She taught me how to bake after I had finished my jobs of sweeping floors, cleaning cooking equipment and collecting flour from across town. Already, life was looking better for me. I stayed with her for quite some time, saving the little money I was given. Nancy got married to a man I did not get along well with. He was vile and cruel. This made life at the bakery a little... difficult. Life continued to favour me. He went missing and turned up dead. Murdered. Nancy was a wreck. The business was failing because she couldn’t find the inner strength to work. I tried to take her place, but it was difficult. I wasn’t as experienced. A few months passed and the place had to be shut down. I was sad to see it go, but I couldn’t hang around. I took the money I had saved, and went to pay Alois a visit. I knew he was still staying at the Trancy Mansion and that wasn’t too far away for me to travel. I would give him personal thanks for letting us go back in the past. Alois, kindly let me stay with him for a while, provided I helped out a little. I was more than happy to help. It was when I was living with Alois that I met Skye. I moved from living with Alois, to staying with Skye. For someone who was born to a single parent in the most dirtiest part of London’s streets, to living in a grand manor with the most dearest person to me, I’ll say I have done well for myself. Wouldn’t you say so?

But now, I’m in this hotel, and I can feel Skye slipping away. For the first time ever, I don’t want to continue on, but I have to. I won’t forget about him. If leaving makes him happy, so be it. I can be glad I’ve made him better by leaving. I’ve got to keep going, find the next happy point in my life. It’ll come. If you wish for it, it’ll be there. Don’t give up. Life will always get better, you just have to let it.

Stay strong, Princess. Don’t ever make me regret leaving you. I don’t want to believe me going away was a bad choice. I did this for you, because you asked me to.

Elias; The manor burned down. I managed to get out okay, and I think everyone else did too, apart from one person, Denzel. I don't think he was able to get out of the burning building fast enough. I went back after all the flames and gone out, and searched around the grounds for him, but found nothing. I only found his little bear, Lucky, who was surprisingly still recognisable. I guess the bear really is lucky, but how unfortunate Denzel was not. That poor child, he was only seven years old. His parents and brother will be most upset, and Skye has enough to deal with already.  Sorry, Princess... I wasn't able to get to your son in time to save him. 

Cambion; Today has been... The most devastating day of my life. My poor brother. He's dead, all thanks to the joint effort of Claude and Ciel. Claude had killed himself, and Keaira felt the need to do the same. He didn't want to be apart from him. Ciel wished Keaira was miserable. His wish came true, and now I'm stuck, wanting to to the same as as Keaira, but I can't. I told him only hours before that I wouldn't commit suicide over the person I loved. Truth is, I probably couldn't understand the pain of losing the person you love the most then, and now I do. I hadn't expected him to do it. He's supposed to be the strong one I look up to. I need someone to look up to now, and no one is there...


I feel terribly lonely, even if Jazz is still here with me. Although, she wont be for much longer, will she? No, because everyone you get close to, either dies, or turns on you. I hated love for that reason, and now I'm thinking to abandon even friendship. It's useless. I want to go back to the way I was before. Half-demon. It was less painful without all these emotions. 


It's foolish to want to back out of a contract, but I don't want Jazz to 'save' my soul from Hell anymore. If Keaira has gone to Hell, then that's where I want to go as well, even if it means I have to suffer for an eternity. Part of me now hopes Jazz does indeed pass before I do, so my soul will not be devoured. I'll meet up with my brother again one day. When I told Keaira I loved him, I really meant it. I always have done, I've just been too scared to say so. 


I wont allow my parents to take Keaira and bury him on the manor grounds. If he's with them, then that means I wont be able to visit him all the time. Jazz is going to take him and bury him in the woods, away from where people will find him. The only people who are to know of his and Claude's whereabouts is me, Jazz and Aurelei. No one else. Not my parents. 


I haven't left his side for more than an hour since Jazz bought him inside, and that was to go to the roof of this block of flats.


Burn it.


I could see Ciel's manor burning in the distance. Well done, Jazz. Ciel left me without a real home, and now he must lose his. I'm hoping people get trapped in that fire and burn. Ciel needs to lose loved ones. The more, the better. Forget wanting to see him smile. I want to see the bastard cry...


Rest In Peace, Keaira. I love you so, so much.


Even alone, I’ll go on, even if it’s painful.
I’ll definitely take along the dream I saw with you.
It was nice to be with you, you and not anyone else.
…But in the morning I woke up to, you’re not there.


Even alone, I’ll go on. Even if I start to want to die,
I’ll hear your voice telling me that I must not die.
Even if it’s painful, even if the loneliness makes me cry,
Deep in my heart, I’ll feel your warmth.