Chester;
I can’t say goodbye, I’m no good.
I don’t get it, I don’t get it, I don’t get it myself.
My feelings aren’t about to disappear, even with how things are, they won’t be gone.
The more I think they’re wrong, the more they accelerate.
I’m already scared, but now I’ll try to believe.
No matter what I lose.
For people who said they never wanted to fall in love again, me and Luca have failed pretty badly. I don't really understand how it happened. What started off as a playful joke between friends, ended up with me actually admitting my admiration for someone else. Never thought it would happen, especially with someone like him. Truth is, I don't think he expected it to happen either. So, I assume me and him are together now, and it's weird not going around seeing how many people you can pull in one night. I can get used to not doing that now, if I remember who I'm doing it for. Must stick to Luca, like a good loyal little lap-dog.
I don't care if some people get jealous. Gen can cry and whine all she likes, but I won't care. If she had Luca instead, I'd be jealous. It's every guy for himself. I fought for what I wanted and I won. He chose me over her, so she should just give up and admit defeat. Move on, find some other boy to play with. There are plenty out there darling, I know. I have had my share of them. However, if you keep hanging around like a bad smell, trying to get him to go back to you, I will turn into 'sassy bich'. No one here has seen that yet. Let's keep it that way, shall we?
Sadness, suffering, hatred, come to me.
I’m ready to greet them anytime.
It’s strange that I’ve become able to think like that.
Thank you for meeting me, I was able to get a little stronger.
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I don't want anyone to think for a second that I am just doing this just for sex. If I wanted sex, I wouldn't have said anything, and just continued to be as I was. I do love him. He is very sweet and I am fond of him. It was clear when I met him that he needed someone to look after and care for him. I want to do that. If he fell in love with me, then I am going to return his feelings and make him happy. He certainly deserves that and more.
I want to be with you forever.
Even if it shouldn’t come true.
I want to be with you forever.
Even if I’m attacked by something.
I want to be with you forever.
With how I am now.
I want to be with you forever.
I won’t even take a step back.